I have a friend younger than me who was diagnosed with multiple myeloma last Fall. He is finishing up his fourth round of chemotherapy and preparing to go through a stem cell transplant. Though I don’t think King David ever battled cancer, he did face many fierce enemies in his lifetime. His honest songs and prayers give words that my friend (and all of us) can use in dark days.
The enemy is chasing me, crushing my life in the dirt, forcing me to live in the dark like those who’ve been dead forever. My spirit is weak inside me — inside, my mind is numb. (vv 3-4)
It is a terrible feeling when your mind is numb. Trauma, intense anxiety, emotional strain, tragic news, or harsh drugs can bring such a state. What do you do when you can’t think? David knew his hope was not in his mental capacities. He cried out to the Lord and lifted up honest pleas to the One he knew holds all power.
I stretch out my hands to you; my whole being is like dry dirt, thirsting for you. Answer me, Lord — and quickly! My breath is fading. Don’t hide your face from me or I’ll be like those going down to the pit! Make me live again, Lord, for your name’s sake. Bring me out of distress because of your righteousness. (vv 7, 11)
David also teaches us a discipline to practice in hard times. Though the spirit suffers and the mind is cloudy, we can still dig deep and remember God’s faithfulness.
I remember the days long past; I meditate on all your deeds; I contemplate your handiwork. (v 5)
God hears us and answers our heart cry. “Draw close to Me, and I will draw close to you” — these are the words of a perfect Father who can always be trusted.
Tell me all about your faithful love come morning time, because I trust you. Show me the way I should go, because I offer my life up to you. Teach me to do what pleases you, because you are my God. Guide me by your good Spirit into good land. (vv 8, 10)
(All Psalms 143 quotes are from the Common English Bible)