Iowa

“I don’t think I want to fly on buddy passes any more after this trip,” John stated as we waited in Des Moines to see if there would be open seats on the flight home to Atlanta. Buddy passes are non-revenue, standby tickets given as a benefit to airline employees, who can share them with family and friends. While there is a cost for taxes and fees, there is usually a significant savings flying on a buddy pass. The challenge is: one can only board the plane if there is an open seat.

Our friend Rob says, “Flying on a buddy pass requires faith,” so I replied to John Turner’s comment: “You gotta have faith, John.” “Oh, I believe in God, Dana, I just don’t believe we’re going to get on this plane.” I laughed, “I think God wants us to believe He is here with us in our everyday situations. He wants us to know He works things out for our good.”

I have to be careful what I say to this eighteen-year-old high school senior because I shared his same worries the day we departed Atlanta for Des Moines. Rob texted me after we arrived at the airport: “The flight is sold out. There must be three no-shows before you and John can fly. Don’t leave, though, until the door to the plane shuts. You just never know…” “Lord,” I prayed, “if we don’t get on this plane, we’ll have to cancel our trip. I thought You wanted us to go…”

image001We had first planned to visit and spend the night with the Bendicksons after we arrived on Tuesday. A GAC Middle School mission team was there in Iowa serving widows with Heart Shot. John knew the adults leading the trip so I was excited about another connection. Wednesday, we were scheduled to tour Indian Hills Community College where one of the wrestling coaches would continue to recruit John to wrestle. Thursday morning we planned to fly home. But if we couldn’t get to Iowa in the first place, our plans were for naught.

On Tuesday, after all had boarded and a last call was made over the loud speaker for missing passengers, our names were announced. The kind lady recognized the relief on our faces and said, “When I hand you these tickets, walk through that jetway door and don’t look back.” We got the last two seats on the plane. Such occasions bring forth automatic praise. Our God who is in Heaven cares about our seemingly insignificant situations here on earth. We know God is with us whether we board the plane or not, but He does require faith.

image002My own experiences include several times of NOT getting on the plane, so I can’t be critical of John’s opinion of buddy pass travel. It is much easier holding a real ticket in your hand without the suspense of the unknown. But it is also true that I don’t talk to God nearly as much when I’m not ‘in need’… and I surely don’t praise Him as much as when prayers are answered.

By the way, our connections with the Bendicksons, the GAC mission team, and the wrestling coach worked out beautifully, as did our flight home. We are still praising God for an incredible trip!

Here’s one more side story: A real concern we had about the trip to Iowa was my blood counts. Because of my battered bone marrow, the pattern over the last several months has been to receive platelets at Emory every Tuesday and Friday and to receive a unit of blood most Fridays. The red blood cells supply energy; the platelets clot the blood. For me, low platelets result in frequent bleeding. Even on infusion days, I usually bleed from the port where a needle was inserted or from my nose. I nearly always bleed on the second day. Since platelets have the shortest life span of any of our blood cells, I always bleed the day before and the day I am due to get infused.

Last week, I received platelets on Monday; we flew out Tuesday; we flew home Thursday; I went to Emory Friday morning and received a unit of platelets. From Monday to Friday I never bled. Susan had told John he would have to take care of me if I got into health trouble, so I imagine he was praying… as were many others. I don’t think I’ve gone that long without bleeding since starting this new chemo regimen last August.

After receiving the platelets Friday, I woke up Saturday morning with a blood-stained t-shirt and have bled every day since. I guess things are back to normal. Think I should have stayed in Iowa?

“Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable His judgments,
and His paths beyond tracing out!
‘Who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has been His counselor?’
‘Who has ever given to God,
that God should repay them?’
For from Him and through Him and for Him are all things.
To Him be the glory forever! Amen.” Romans 11:33-36

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updates

image001I won’t write next week as we have Spring Break. John Turner and I plan to go to Iowa to visit a junior college that wants John to wrestle for them. We also plan to visit Troy Bendickson and his family while in the state. The Bendicksons run Heart Shot Ministry as an outreach to young people and widows. John and I have fond memories of earlier visits.

John’s conclusion to his senior year of high school wrestling was too difficult to write about when it took place. You may remember he finished 4th in the largest classification of schools in Alabama last year and entered his senior season ranked 2nd in the 220 pound division. He fought through a concussion and a couple of other injuries during the year but seemed poised for a shot at the state title… which was his goal.

Susan and I could not make it to the Friday first round of the February sectionals in Montgomery but left early Saturday morning to arrive in time to watch the second round. Friday evening John pinned his first round opponent and just needed to win one more match to qualify for the state tournament held in Huntsville the following weekend.

As we entered the parking lot of the arena, John’s mom Terri called Susan in a panic. We parked and entered the door to meet Terri and her shattered son. At the morning weigh-ins, John did not make weight. Appeals were made, but nothing changed — he was out of the tournament. The certified scales John’s high school carried on their team bus showed him under the limit by a pound. But the scales in the arena registered John being four tenths of a pound over. He had never missed weight in his wrestling career. He was devastated.

Terri handled the crisis very well, Susan and I thought, but it was hard. Time seems to have healed John’s wounds, but this was a tough way to end a season. Two four-year colleges have asked him to wrestle, but he seems to be leaning toward the junior college in Iowa, where the sport is huge. Please pray for God’s wisdom and direction and continued guidance for a young man we love as our own.

Here’s an updated health report: I did three rounds of chemotherapy before Christmas but had to cease when we found a negative impact on my eyes, a common side effect of the drug. We stopped all treatment for three months, but soon I felt a familiar pain in my ribs. Tests proved the cancer had returned. After I passed a February eye test and went through one more round of chemotherapy, the bad numbers dropped and I am back in remission. I started another round last week.

Besides the multiple myeloma, our biggest challenge is that my bone marrow does not produce platelets or red blood cells. I go to Emory for infusions twice a week. Over the next few days, doctors are planning to try some other drugs to boost my counts. We would appreciate your prayers for improvement. Susan is the best caretaker in the world… and I’m the patient who is always trying to get out of stuff. I think my middle school students are rubbing off on me.

May the Lord’s will be done in all our lives. We are His children, the sheep of His pasture… and we follow the Perfect Shepherd.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:12

“Know that the Lord is God. It is He who made us, and we are His; we are His people, the sheep of His pasture.” Psalm 100:3

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crux

“For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.” Galatians 5:6

Here’s an imagined conversation with Jesus regarding the crux of the matter:

Me: What was the big deal about circumcision?
Jesus: Circumcision was a huge point of division in the early church, and Paul was challenging those who were adding to the Gospel. ‘Believe in Me!’ was My message. ‘Righteousness is the gift of God to those who put their faith in Christ’ was the message of Paul. I fulfilled the Law… What matters is that you truly trust Me.

Me: So the object of this faith is You… What if someone says: ‘OK, I believe,’ then never does anything?
Jesus: Yes, I am the object of the faith that pleases God. I am the ‘life-giver.’ My brother James argued that ‘faith without works is dead,’ but isn’t that obvious? Faith in Me brings true life. The Holy Spirit is given to those who believe in Me. My Father pours His love into your hearts by His Spirit. This love is active… it is not dead.

Me: I would probably describe my walk as faithless most of the time. How can my faith be stronger?
Jesus: Come to Me! I am the Author and Perfecter of faith. When you are faithless, our Father is faithful; you are a part of Me and He cannot deny Himself. Trust Me; obey Me; follow Me; remain in Me. Don’t you remember the faith struggles of My apostles? I was their hope, just as I am your hope.

Me: I’d just like faith the size of a mustard seed so I could move mountains…
Jesus: Good… but without love, you are nothing. I trusted My Father and did mighty works, but all these works were an expression of His perfect love. God is love… and love is alive.

Me: I need Your help…
Jesus: Your life is in Me. Because I live, you live. I am in My Father. You are in Me. I am in you. You can rest in this fact: My life in you will express itself in love.

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.” Galatians 2:20

“And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” Romans 5:5

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hands

“He tends His flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in His arms and carries them close to His heart; He gently leads those that have young.” (Isaiah 40:11)

IMG_2732The top hand is larger now as this picture was taken a few years ago. Wilkes turns 7 on March 21! The bottom hand belongs to Rex who turns 89 on March 19. My hand is on his and Taylor’s is on mine. As we lead our young so the Good Shepherd gently leads His sheep.

“I will be your God throughout your lifetime— until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you.” (Isaiah 46:4) The One who created us cares for us… whether our hair is dark and thick or white and thinning (or absent), He carries us.

“For I hold you by your right hand— I, the Lord your God. And I say to you, ‘Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you.’” (Isaiah 41:13) The Good Shepherd says: ‘Fear not; I am with you.’ “He guides me along the right paths for His Name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.” (Psalm 23:3-4)

‘My sheep hear My voice and will not listen to others…’ Why would we listen to enemies or trust the hired hands who run away when there is danger? No… we will listen to the perfect Shepherd who laid down His life for us and promises to be with us forever.

“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23:5-6

“I am the Good Shepherd. The Good Shepherd lays down His life for the sheep. The hired hand is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep. I am the Good Shepherd; I know My sheep and My sheep know Me—just as the Father knows Me and I know the Father—and I lay down My life for the sheep.” John 10:11-15

“My sheep listen to My voice; I know them, and they follow Me. I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of My hand. My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; no one can snatch them out of My Father’s hand. I and the Father are one.” John 10:27-30

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believe

“So we see that they were not able to enter, because of their unbelief.” (Hebrews 3:19)

The writer of Hebrews says to examine those who went before us… learn from the faithful and learn from the faithless. After the twelve spies, one from each tribe, returned from Canaan, only Joshua and Caleb said: ‘Yes! We can take the land!’ The other ten cried: ‘No! We can’t do it!’ Unfortunately, the people sided with the ten and God said: ‘Because you did not believe in Me, you will not enter the Promised Land.’ All the Israelites wandered the wilderness for the next forty years, one year for each day the spies were gone. Only those who had been under twenty years old… and Joshua and Caleb… entered Canaan.

What was the difference between the two and the ten? All had witnessed God’s power as He judged Pharaoh and the false gods of Egypt. All walked through the Red Sea. All ate manna and quail sent from above. All drank water from the rock. But only Joshua and Caleb stood strong and exclaimed: ‘Don’t you see? God delivered us from bondage! He has cared for our needs and protected us on our journey. Nothing is too hard for Him!’ Faith was the difference.

The writer of Hebrews warns: “See to it, brothers and sisters, that none of you has a sinful unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God.” (Hebrews 3:12) We are not served by a human high priest, as were the Israelites. Our hope is in Jesus, the One “who has been found more worthy than Moses.” (3:3) “Therefore, brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, whom we acknowledge as our Apostle and High Priest.” (3:1)

Faith in the Son is God’s path. As He walked the earth, Jesus constantly called people to believe in Him. To His skeptics, Christ said: “The work of God is this: to believe in the One He has sent.” To His disciples, He asked: “Do you finally believe?” After declaring He was the Resurrection and Life, He challenged a grieving Martha: “Whoever lives by believing in Me will never die. Do you believe this?” After His own resurrection, Jesus said to Thomas: “Because you have seen you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”

“Lord, I believe! Help my unbelief!” cried the struggling father of a tormented boy. This is a great prayer! Jesus will help us… He is the ‘Author and Perfecter of our faith.’ We don’t please God by working harder or determining to do better. He says: ‘Cast your burdens on Me for I care for you! Trust in My Son and believe what I’ve accomplished through Him. Have the confidence of Joshua and Caleb and experience My faithfulness and power!’

“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.” Hebrew 11:6

“Therefore, since we have a great High Priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a High Priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have One who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet He did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” Hebrews 4:14

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