Dana's Christian Journey

musings of a thankful cancer survivor

Author: Dana

  • care

    One of the blessings in dealing with sickness is to realize how many people truly care about you. My wife, our kids, our grandkids, my siblings and parents, co-workers — past and present, brothers and sisters in Christ’s church — here and all over the world, former students and players, friends, neighbors… But I believe one stands above all on earth: my mother.

    mamaMama is my greatest fan. She cares… no matter what. She sends notes; she cheers me up; and she prays non-stop for me and all her children. Of course, when we were young, she disciplined us and prepared us to be good citizens. She always has a song about Jesus on her lips and has a special place in her heart for the poor.

    How do we truly honor the one who cares most for us? A card or flower or meal or book can never fully communicate what we feel. In person or in our memories, we all can thank God for giving us solid examples of what it truly means to care.

    God uses a mother’s care to describe His own. “As one whom his mother comforts, so I will comfort you.” (Isaiah 66:13) His capacity is unlimited. “Cast your cares on the Lord, for He cares for you.” (I Peter 5:7) What a beautiful truth God wants us all to take to heart: “I care for you.” If we are intensely praying for a loved one, we can know God also cares for that loved one. His love is infinite.

    Perhaps in our youth, we could sometimes fool our mothers. My cries while being disciplined were often exaggerated; I wanted it to stop! Like Nannie, her mother, Mama was full of mercy. We tried to take advantage…

    God is also full of mercy, but He is never deceived. He knows every thought, motive, and trick. “You cannot fool God, so don’t make a fool of yourself!” (Galatians 6:7) As with our earthly parents, love is often shown through discipline. God disciplines because He cares!

    “Thank you, Lord, for caring. Thank you for our mothers and a day to honor them. Teach us to care more deeply. Amen.”

    “’My son, do not make light of the Lord’s discipline, and do not lose heart when He rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines those He loves, and He punishes each one he accepts as His child.’ Endure hardship as discipline.” Hebrews 12:5-7

  • time

    boat_rideI got a call from two young voices Friday: “Opa, can you come fishing with us?” So Saturday morning 7-year-old Wilkes and almost 5-year-old Macy rode in Taylor’s boat through the cool spring air to the shallows where the fish are on bed. Taylor likes ‘top water fishing’ best, but ‘sight fishing’ is a close second as the fisherman actually sees the fish in the water.

    Our son caught a couple before we came to a place where he spotted a big bass. Thirty minutes later, we were in the same location as Taylor patiently tossed a plastic worm into the water. “Daddy, let’s go home,” cried Macy. “This is boring,” added Wilkes. “How long is he going to do this?” I thought. Taylor kept saying, “Be quiet guys, I’m going to catch this fish.” Suddenly, he shouted, “Macy, get the net!” Thirty seconds later, his pole bent, the water splashed, and Macy netted a good-sized bass.

    big_fishI asked, “How did you know it was time to get the net?” Taylor explained he saw the fish flinch, which meant it was getting aggravated with the troublesome worm and would soon strike. “Does it always take that much time?” I asked. “Sometimes it is quicker, but bigger bass usually take longer… sometimes it can take a couple of hours.” “Whew,” I thought, “the kids and I would have never lasted that long.”

    Once, after the resurrection, Simon Peter said, “I’m going fishing.” “We’ll come with you,” the other disciples said. They fished all night and didn’t catch a thing. Then Someone from the shore shouted, “Haven’t you caught anything?” “No!” they answered. “Cast your net on the other side of the boat!” When they did, the fishermen were unable to haul in the net because it was so full. “It’s the Lord!” said John, and Peter jumped in the water and swam to shore.

    The disciples counted 153 fish, but interestingly, the net did net did not tear. They brought some of the fish to the fire where Jesus was cooking breakfast. This story from John 21 closes with: “This was now the third time Jesus appeared to His disciples after He was raised from the dead.” (John 21:14)

    ‘Time’ is used in our language in different ways. It is an important word, and though God is not bound by it, He comprehends every facet. He knows the times and seasons of our lives and our time is in His hands.

    Jesus understands our struggles with ‘time’ because He lived on earth. He taught both patience and urgency while urging listeners not to miss what is most important. “A time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship in spirit and truth.” (John 4:23) “I assure you that the time is coming, indeed it’s here now, when the dead will hear My voice — the voice of the Son of God. And those who listen will live.” (John 5:25)

    Jesus also once said, “I am with you for only a short time…” and we would be wise to use our time on earth as He did. Let’s pray for wisdom and grace. Let’s redeem the time rather than waste it. Treasure the time with loved ones and do not take your blessings for granted. Do not grow weary in taking the time to serve and love others. Praise God He has given us time!

    “When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners.” Romans 5:6

    “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” Galatians 6:9

    “So, then, be careful how you live. Do not be unwise but wise, making the best use of your time because the times are evil.” Ephesians 5:15-16

  • cantar

    As hippies searching for the truth in their early twenties, Keith and Melody Green found Jesus and knew their life mission. Everyone needs Christ! A gifted musician, Keith would take his guitar to the California beaches and street corners and sing about his Savior. A crowd would gather and Keith would tell everyone about the One who died for our sins and who was calling people to repent and follow Him.

    In 1982, at the age of 28, Keith and two of his children died in a small airplane crash in Lindale, Texas. In a short life and tragic death, multitudes have been impacted by the message Keith and Melody sang and proclaimed. God has ordained His Good News be sung in every language and for His message to be shared all over the world.

    image001In a small village high in the Andes mountains of Ecuador, another young man found Christ many years ago. Realizing Jesus was the hope for his people, Pastor Manuel and his wife Paula determined to share the Lord the rest of their lives. In his native language of Quichua, Pastor Manuel would walk to mountain villages, sing songs about Jesus, gather a crowd, and preach the Gospel. Over the years, thirty to forty churches have been planted in the hidden valleys and majestic peaks of his beautiful country. The poor, the disenfranchised, the young and the old are offered a place at the Lord’s table.

    image002Pastor Manuel, Paula, son Marco, and his wife Mayra flew into Atlanta Good Friday and have encouraged many. At one gathering, teachers who have led mission teams to Ecuador shared the marvelous ways they and others have been impacted by this humble family. God’s ways are amazing.

    Here’s a summary of heartfelt love: “Thank you for sharing your lives with us. Though we come from different cultures and speak different languages, we see Christ in you. We have witnessed true faith in action. We see how much you love the Lord and how much you love people. We see how you serve the elderly and the children. You have prayed for us and blessed us more than you know. We love you.”

    Some of us would not gather much of a crowd by singing on a street corner, but God wants His Light to shine through us. He wants every person from every nation to hear the Good News of His Son. The Holy Spirit is at work to bring forth the harvest. May we offer ourselves as willing servants.

    “I will sing of the Lord’s great love forever; with my mouth I will make Your faithfulness known through all generations. I will declare that Your love stands firm forever, that You have established Your faithfulness in heaven itself.” Psalm 89:1-2

  • Iowa

    “I don’t think I want to fly on buddy passes any more after this trip,” John stated as we waited in Des Moines to see if there would be open seats on the flight home to Atlanta. Buddy passes are non-revenue, standby tickets given as a benefit to airline employees, who can share them with family and friends. While there is a cost for taxes and fees, there is usually a significant savings flying on a buddy pass. The challenge is: one can only board the plane if there is an open seat.

    Our friend Rob says, “Flying on a buddy pass requires faith,” so I replied to John Turner’s comment: “You gotta have faith, John.” “Oh, I believe in God, Dana, I just don’t believe we’re going to get on this plane.” I laughed, “I think God wants us to believe He is here with us in our everyday situations. He wants us to know He works things out for our good.”

    I have to be careful what I say to this eighteen-year-old high school senior because I shared his same worries the day we departed Atlanta for Des Moines. Rob texted me after we arrived at the airport: “The flight is sold out. There must be three no-shows before you and John can fly. Don’t leave, though, until the door to the plane shuts. You just never know…” “Lord,” I prayed, “if we don’t get on this plane, we’ll have to cancel our trip. I thought You wanted us to go…”

    image001We had first planned to visit and spend the night with the Bendicksons after we arrived on Tuesday. A GAC Middle School mission team was there in Iowa serving widows with Heart Shot. John knew the adults leading the trip so I was excited about another connection. Wednesday, we were scheduled to tour Indian Hills Community College where one of the wrestling coaches would continue to recruit John to wrestle. Thursday morning we planned to fly home. But if we couldn’t get to Iowa in the first place, our plans were for naught.

    On Tuesday, after all had boarded and a last call was made over the loud speaker for missing passengers, our names were announced. The kind lady recognized the relief on our faces and said, “When I hand you these tickets, walk through that jetway door and don’t look back.” We got the last two seats on the plane. Such occasions bring forth automatic praise. Our God who is in Heaven cares about our seemingly insignificant situations here on earth. We know God is with us whether we board the plane or not, but He does require faith.

    image002My own experiences include several times of NOT getting on the plane, so I can’t be critical of John’s opinion of buddy pass travel. It is much easier holding a real ticket in your hand without the suspense of the unknown. But it is also true that I don’t talk to God nearly as much when I’m not ‘in need’… and I surely don’t praise Him as much as when prayers are answered.

    By the way, our connections with the Bendicksons, the GAC mission team, and the wrestling coach worked out beautifully, as did our flight home. We are still praising God for an incredible trip!

    Here’s one more side story: A real concern we had about the trip to Iowa was my blood counts. Because of my battered bone marrow, the pattern over the last several months has been to receive platelets at Emory every Tuesday and Friday and to receive a unit of blood most Fridays. The red blood cells supply energy; the platelets clot the blood. For me, low platelets result in frequent bleeding. Even on infusion days, I usually bleed from the port where a needle was inserted or from my nose. I nearly always bleed on the second day. Since platelets have the shortest life span of any of our blood cells, I always bleed the day before and the day I am due to get infused.

    Last week, I received platelets on Monday; we flew out Tuesday; we flew home Thursday; I went to Emory Friday morning and received a unit of platelets. From Monday to Friday I never bled. Susan had told John he would have to take care of me if I got into health trouble, so I imagine he was praying… as were many others. I don’t think I’ve gone that long without bleeding since starting this new chemo regimen last August.

    After receiving the platelets Friday, I woke up Saturday morning with a blood-stained t-shirt and have bled every day since. I guess things are back to normal. Think I should have stayed in Iowa?

    “Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
    How unsearchable His judgments,
    and His paths beyond tracing out!
    ‘Who has known the mind of the Lord?
    Or who has been His counselor?’
    ‘Who has ever given to God,
    that God should repay them?’
    For from Him and through Him and for Him are all things.
    To Him be the glory forever! Amen.” Romans 11:33-36

  • updates

    image001I won’t write next week as we have Spring Break. John Turner and I plan to go to Iowa to visit a junior college that wants John to wrestle for them. We also plan to visit Troy Bendickson and his family while in the state. The Bendicksons run Heart Shot Ministry as an outreach to young people and widows. John and I have fond memories of earlier visits.

    John’s conclusion to his senior year of high school wrestling was too difficult to write about when it took place. You may remember he finished 4th in the largest classification of schools in Alabama last year and entered his senior season ranked 2nd in the 220 pound division. He fought through a concussion and a couple of other injuries during the year but seemed poised for a shot at the state title… which was his goal.

    Susan and I could not make it to the Friday first round of the February sectionals in Montgomery but left early Saturday morning to arrive in time to watch the second round. Friday evening John pinned his first round opponent and just needed to win one more match to qualify for the state tournament held in Huntsville the following weekend.

    As we entered the parking lot of the arena, John’s mom Terri called Susan in a panic. We parked and entered the door to meet Terri and her shattered son. At the morning weigh-ins, John did not make weight. Appeals were made, but nothing changed — he was out of the tournament. The certified scales John’s high school carried on their team bus showed him under the limit by a pound. But the scales in the arena registered John being four tenths of a pound over. He had never missed weight in his wrestling career. He was devastated.

    Terri handled the crisis very well, Susan and I thought, but it was hard. Time seems to have healed John’s wounds, but this was a tough way to end a season. Two four-year colleges have asked him to wrestle, but he seems to be leaning toward the junior college in Iowa, where the sport is huge. Please pray for God’s wisdom and direction and continued guidance for a young man we love as our own.

    Here’s an updated health report: I did three rounds of chemotherapy before Christmas but had to cease when we found a negative impact on my eyes, a common side effect of the drug. We stopped all treatment for three months, but soon I felt a familiar pain in my ribs. Tests proved the cancer had returned. After I passed a February eye test and went through one more round of chemotherapy, the bad numbers dropped and I am back in remission. I started another round last week.

    Besides the multiple myeloma, our biggest challenge is that my bone marrow does not produce platelets or red blood cells. I go to Emory for infusions twice a week. Over the next few days, doctors are planning to try some other drugs to boost my counts. We would appreciate your prayers for improvement. Susan is the best caretaker in the world… and I’m the patient who is always trying to get out of stuff. I think my middle school students are rubbing off on me.

    May the Lord’s will be done in all our lives. We are His children, the sheep of His pasture… and we follow the Perfect Shepherd.

    “For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.” Ephesians 6:12

    “Know that the Lord is God. It is He who made us, and we are His; we are His people, the sheep of His pasture.” Psalm 100:3

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